Till I Die

Why Football Means Everything (Even When It Shouldn't)

Published by Oneworld Publications
Distributed by Simon & Schuster

About The Book

You can change where you live, your hairstyle, the kind of music you listen to, your job, your spouse. But you can’t ever change the team you support.

'A book for anyone who has ever screamed at a television and wondered, briefly, why.' Adam Alter, author of Drunk Tank Pink

Dr Damien Pearse is a level-headed man. A psychologist, he spends his days encouraging patients to adopt a calmer, more grounded approach to life. And yet on match days all this unravels. He becomes anxious, panicked, sometimes belligerent, and if things go well for Wolves, manically ecstatic. And he is not alone – wander through any British town centre on a Saturday night and watch as the aftershocks of wins and losses spill out into the real world. Football means so much to so many.

Pearse meets with superfans, scientists, players and trolls, uncovering what drives our unwavering obsession with football. Examining ideas of identity, belonging, shame, modern masculinity and the most extreme acts of football fanaticism, Till I Die offers a poignant reappraisal of an enduring national pastime and passion.

'A thought-provoking, funny and ultimately heartbreaking book about how football fandom can evoke our most painful emotions.' Dr Gwen Adshead, author of The Devil You Know

About The Author

Dr Damien Pearse is a chartered psychologist specialising in trauma. Before training as a psychologist, Damien was one of the Press Association’s youngest specialist reporters, working as their crime correspondent. During his time there he covered football hooliganism at the 1998 World Cup and 2000 Euro Championships. He then went on to work for the Guardian and Sky News. Despite living in Hastings, he is a lifelong Wolves supporter.

Product Details

  • Publisher: Oneworld Publications (September 3, 2026)
  • Length: 400 pages
  • ISBN13: 9781836432647

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Raves and Reviews

'A thought-provoking, funny and ultimately heartbreaking book about how football fandom can evoke our most painful emotions.' —Dr Gwen Adshead, The Sunday Times bestselling author of The Devil You Know

'Whether you're a football fan or a student of human behavior – or both – Damien Pearse is funny about his own obsession and serious about what it reveals. In Till I Die, he traces his quest to understand why we surrender to a game so stingy with its goals and so generous with its capacity to ruin a season, a year, a decade. A book for anyone who has ever screamed at a television and wondered, briefly, why.' —Adam Alter, New York Times bestselling author of Drunk Tank Pink

'A unique, sharply written and highly engaging exploration of why we love the game as we do. Pearse is a fine storyteller with an eye for compelling human stories and interesting characters, all of them united through this obsession of ours.’ —Daniel Gray, author of The Silence of the Stands

‘Funny and brutally honest, this is a wonderful globe-trotting journey of self-discovery and an exploration of the tribal psychology of football fandom… A book for all lovers of the beautiful game… Rich in anecdotes, humour and introspection, this is a story that transcends clubs, countries and cultures.' —Kieron Brady

'An insightful and sometimes disturbing examination of football passion. Damien has talked candidly with the tragic victims of the game’s excesses, as well as explaining its roots. A work of great depth, told by a man I first came across as a talented, if sometimes wayward, trainee reporter.' —Steve Gordos, former sports editor, Wolverhampton Express & Star

Absolutely brilliant.’ —Dan Tester

‘Really fun read... It's a question I've asked myself a lot. Why do we care so much? This book is very relatable, especially as Damien talks about his own emotions and feelings.’ —Harry Mansell

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